o what a day.

so today sucks. sitting at the hospital waiting for my in law to be done. then on top of that one lof my family dogs is being put down. then i am so frustrated with my infertility its not funny. my husband has been checked out and hes fine but im not im apperentrly not working. which truely sucks. i have been an only child all my life with step sister and brother who now no longer talk to me because of there father. i do have a child that is 5 an he wants a baby brother and a baby sister. it hurts me more an more when i cant say baby u will have that. i feel like a failure. im not one who would usually care what some people think but as of late thats all i feel like is i just get push away cause im overweight. ut a big reason y im over weight is cause of my asthma. everytime i think im getting on a better trmack bamn it hits again and i get more steriods. i hate them more than anything. i just am at a point of i wanna hide in a closet and not come out.............  i just dont know what to do anymore.